Real Life? Whatever That Is
What so-called interesting times we live in. In which we live? Grammar Nazis anyone? I have lost so much weight that I have a lap now. Weird. All I am doing is eating whenever the normal people here eat. Who knew?
So I took my pain meds, my heart pill and my antidepressant. I am now officially ready for my day to commence. At least the sun is up now. My apologies to everyone who got an "Attachment Unavailable" notice from me today. It should have been a picture of a Brigid's Cross. Sigh.
I am excited about the CCC Synod Topics. The idea of a ministry with animals/creation is very appropriate for our church. There are no doubt those called to such a ministry who are not necessarily called to be priests or deacons. Or, if they are, they could use the extra continuing education. Great work, Thomas Marble. You are a treasure to the church.
I am cold today. Yesterday it was too hot here.. No wonder people are getting sick. I pray it will only be a common cold they catch. There has been enough death already.
Speaking of which, I don't believe death is something to be feared. At least not personally, for me. I am convinced that God is no less present after death than he is now. If the "he" pronoun triggers you, sorry. I am old. I have already been there (feminism) and done that. Moving on now....
So what is "real life"? Today it seems to be locked in life. I stay home to protect myself and my family from those who will not protect themselves. Real life is getting irritated with one another to the point that some family members won't communicate. Real life is avoiding answering the phone for fear of collection agents....I hate having to say, no, I can't pay it. Go ahead. Sue me. Try to get blood from a stone. Ha, ha, ha, you are So FUNNY. NOT. I have been harassed by tougher folk than you.
I am having a dispute with a hospital who thinks I should pay thirty-six thousand dollars because they failed to apply for me for Medicaid at a time when I was not in my right mind to do it for myself. There are those who would say I should have done so. I could no more do that than I could have flown at the time. This is why I try to be there for other folks who have mental issues from time to time. This is why I may have to declare bankruptcy again, if the conservatives don't lock me out of that possibility too. I declared bankruptcy once before, about 11 or 12 years ago. It might be time again.
I was, I may have told you, advised that I get too much money for Medicaid and for SSA Extra Help. So the other day, I received a new application for Medicaid. !!!! I do not know why. I'm just going to fill out the papers (again) and wait to hear (again) that I get one and a half times the amount of the federal poverty rate in Social Security funds and therefore am ineligible (still). Hah! Who says life is boring on lockdown!
Truly, what is real life? For me, it's real people with real feelings, including me. I have given myself permission to say no, and to take time for myself to rest and just to be alone. I do much better when I have some alone time. I slept well last night, from about nine thirty pm to four am. That's plenty of sleep. Today I am ready to write, to practice my guitar, to get up and take a shower, to get up and cook my own lunch. To avoid my phone if necessary. To be here for whomever God might send.
God does send me people. On line, on Zoom, etc. When I run out of energy, I will rest, because I am 71 years old and I deserve to rest when I am tired. I believe that there is always enough time to do God's will. I believe there are plenty of other people who can help those I can't get to. I am NOT the only one who can help. I am not even the best one. I am just one. Whew. What a relief that is, eh?
So have a fun real life today. Laugh. Sing. Dance. Cry if you need to. I will. Because I am loved by the One Who loves us. I can actually feel it. So can you. Just sit quietly long enough. You will feel the presence of your Higher Power. If you can't sit quietly, take a walk inside your house or outside your house so long as you are far enough from other folks to be safe. Punch a wall with a nerf bat. Punch your pillow. Yell your head off, then tell the neighbors to mind their own business.
Be happy. Happy is a side effect of doing God's will because it is what you want to do. Nobody ever warns you that God will change what you want, eh? LOL! Love and joy be yours. Peace to you and all good things. Until next time,
Love, Rev. Patti+
So I took my pain meds, my heart pill and my antidepressant. I am now officially ready for my day to commence. At least the sun is up now. My apologies to everyone who got an "Attachment Unavailable" notice from me today. It should have been a picture of a Brigid's Cross. Sigh.
I am excited about the CCC Synod Topics. The idea of a ministry with animals/creation is very appropriate for our church. There are no doubt those called to such a ministry who are not necessarily called to be priests or deacons. Or, if they are, they could use the extra continuing education. Great work, Thomas Marble. You are a treasure to the church.
I am cold today. Yesterday it was too hot here.. No wonder people are getting sick. I pray it will only be a common cold they catch. There has been enough death already.
Speaking of which, I don't believe death is something to be feared. At least not personally, for me. I am convinced that God is no less present after death than he is now. If the "he" pronoun triggers you, sorry. I am old. I have already been there (feminism) and done that. Moving on now....
So what is "real life"? Today it seems to be locked in life. I stay home to protect myself and my family from those who will not protect themselves. Real life is getting irritated with one another to the point that some family members won't communicate. Real life is avoiding answering the phone for fear of collection agents....I hate having to say, no, I can't pay it. Go ahead. Sue me. Try to get blood from a stone. Ha, ha, ha, you are So FUNNY. NOT. I have been harassed by tougher folk than you.
I am having a dispute with a hospital who thinks I should pay thirty-six thousand dollars because they failed to apply for me for Medicaid at a time when I was not in my right mind to do it for myself. There are those who would say I should have done so. I could no more do that than I could have flown at the time. This is why I try to be there for other folks who have mental issues from time to time. This is why I may have to declare bankruptcy again, if the conservatives don't lock me out of that possibility too. I declared bankruptcy once before, about 11 or 12 years ago. It might be time again.
I was, I may have told you, advised that I get too much money for Medicaid and for SSA Extra Help. So the other day, I received a new application for Medicaid. !!!! I do not know why. I'm just going to fill out the papers (again) and wait to hear (again) that I get one and a half times the amount of the federal poverty rate in Social Security funds and therefore am ineligible (still). Hah! Who says life is boring on lockdown!
Truly, what is real life? For me, it's real people with real feelings, including me. I have given myself permission to say no, and to take time for myself to rest and just to be alone. I do much better when I have some alone time. I slept well last night, from about nine thirty pm to four am. That's plenty of sleep. Today I am ready to write, to practice my guitar, to get up and take a shower, to get up and cook my own lunch. To avoid my phone if necessary. To be here for whomever God might send.
God does send me people. On line, on Zoom, etc. When I run out of energy, I will rest, because I am 71 years old and I deserve to rest when I am tired. I believe that there is always enough time to do God's will. I believe there are plenty of other people who can help those I can't get to. I am NOT the only one who can help. I am not even the best one. I am just one. Whew. What a relief that is, eh?
So have a fun real life today. Laugh. Sing. Dance. Cry if you need to. I will. Because I am loved by the One Who loves us. I can actually feel it. So can you. Just sit quietly long enough. You will feel the presence of your Higher Power. If you can't sit quietly, take a walk inside your house or outside your house so long as you are far enough from other folks to be safe. Punch a wall with a nerf bat. Punch your pillow. Yell your head off, then tell the neighbors to mind their own business.
Be happy. Happy is a side effect of doing God's will because it is what you want to do. Nobody ever warns you that God will change what you want, eh? LOL! Love and joy be yours. Peace to you and all good things. Until next time,
Love, Rev. Patti+
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