Physical Pain and Peace of Heart

I am living with a considerable amount of pain.  It doesn't help that the power keeps going out.  It gets warm and hateful!  Food spoils.  No cash until tomorrow.  Assuming TPTB actually pay me.  See?  I am slipping into negativity.  

But I have over 40 years of experience with stinking thinking.  Not gonna go there.

My true being exists.in our Creator, who wants to give us shalom  or peace.  This doesn't mean lack of violence or struggle, but rather comfortable enough and safe enough and happy enough.  And good enough.  Perhaps I will cry.  Endorphins.  Perhaps the next dose of pain meds will be soon.  All will indeed be well, because I am loved by my Beloved.

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